Voice of character

I don't know about all of this. It seems like to much. When I know I can go harder and be a better person why do I have to stay in my shell. It is a social comfort but why would I want to do that. I have confidence well not really socially. I.. I know what I can do. I am not reaching my full potential. Is that why Dad yells at me? He just doesn't have any other way of conveying it. He feels like he has to be the rock that the family relies on. That just is just a task that is too much for one person. It is a lot of stress, rarely seeing your wife, your kids, because your at work all day trying to provide for them making sure they can stay in a nice house and have warm dinner every night. At least that is what I hope he means when he yells at me. He says I need to be stronger, but the ways he conveys it he is being a hypocrite, using his alcohol to tell his words when he is not enough of a man to say it himself. Uhh whatever I think about it tomorrow.